Wednesday, March 15, 2006
ok, cos of certain reasons i didnt stay over at my cousin's place.. so i din watch i not stupid too.. n im so sleepy now.. i jus finished my mum's accounts, n im full of figures now.. argh!! i do love accounts, but not when im sleepy.. n guess wat? another choice has been given to me.. Nottingham has accepted me for business, accounting n finance or watever the course is called.. now how? business or science? NUS or Nottingham? n as for the pharmacy course i applied for in Nottingham, they said they'll inform me later.. n if they do inform me, i have to go for some kinda interview before they decide if i can enter the course @@ y so troublesome?! its like so many things to do, n my parents r now quite frustrated with me, cos i was like procrastinating during my application for the universities.. n they were like jumping up n down pointing at me at my nose saying wat u mean too early?! dont u know they have quota? they only accpet certain amount of students n that's it! if u dont apply early u wont get a place n that's ur business!! wow ok.. i dont know wat's my prob.. whenever i meet something that stops me somewhere in the middle, i will leave it aside then forget totally bout it.. like for my application, there's this small part that i dont know how to fill in, n i jus left my whole form there in my cupboard, n then when ppl ask me i jus say applying applying, telling myself to complete it n send it soon, but when i reach home, i jus forget bout it again! wat's wrong with my brain? i really think there's something wrong with my brain, cos im so forgetful n so careless!! i always do stupid things like forgetting to bring my stuff, forgetting to do something, sending wrong msg to other ppl, going somewhere to take something but forget in the end wat i was gonna take, wanting to say something but forget the next sec wat i wanted to say.. wat is the matter with my brain?!! ok, where m i going.. haha.. k, but in the end, after kena-ing much scolding n shouting, i finally sent the forms, completed the application.. n now, they r scolding me for the universities' slow reply.. haih.. how come my parents r so enthusiastic n im like none of my business? i really feel im a bad daughter.. wat can i do to make myself more enthusiastic n more excited bout my future? all i feel when i think of my future now, is headache! dont know wat to study, where to go n so on.. haih.. ok, did an idiotic thing again.. this time im not alone.. haha, me n my sis said it was very hot so we closed the windows to turn on the aircon, but that was an hour plus ago n we just noticed we havent on the aircon.. my brain problem again i think.. haha.. ok, im really sleepy.. wish God can tell me in my dreams wat is the right choice.. i really really need God's direction now, n i cant feel a single bit of it.. i think God will appear IN HIS TIME.. so all i can do is wait..oh ya, CONGRATULATIONS! to all those spm n stpm students who did really well.. well, i know those in church did very well for spm, n really, CONGRATS!!n to those taking exams, like xian, good luck n all the best! think of me n u're the best!
